Lynn Gunterman Louisville , Kentucky , USA
There were a lot of things I wanted to talk (or write) about, but one thing kept popping in my head. Thoughts are real. Your emotions with your thoughts are very powerful! Be careful of your emotions and thoughts. Faith and Fear make poor bedfellows. Where one is found, the other cannot exist. So you can only have one emotion at a time, either positive or a negative.
I used to suffer horribly from PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder). The nightmares were awful!! When I woke up from them I'd literally be paralyzed by them. My husband said it scared him to death when he had woke me up from a nightmare were I was yelling and crying out. When I first woke up everything was black and I could only see an outline of his face leaning over me. As I was trying to focus in his face, I didn't know where I was at, what was going on, sweating from head to toe and could hardly breathe!! Then I started hearing a voice softly calling my name, it gradually got louder until finally I could focus and see who was over me. It was my husband and he was calling my name out. Then my breathing got better and I could finally start moving around some. My husband sat me up and set there holding me for a while to help me calm down and to also help him relax and calm down as well. He wasn't sure what had happened to me and actually thought that I was dieing or something. He said I was whiter than a ghost, had no color in me at all. He said although he saw I was soaked from head to toe that I was cold as ice to the touch. He also said that he could tell that when he was trying to shake me out of it to come out of it that I had this scary blank stare in my eyes and he could tell I didn't know who he was that's why he was telling me Lynn, it's me Jimmy your husband, I love you; please wake up. He said that over and over till I came out of it. He said it was a good 15 minutes. I tell you that just to give you one example of how bad it was.
Then, I faithfully and positively talked, prayed and read my bible continuously for 6 months straight. I confronted my dad and told him I was no longer scared of him one single bit. He had no power over me at all. I would stand up for myself to him. I let him know that by all means I was in control!
Guess what!!! No more bad nightmares like that again!
Its out of my subconscious mind.
Thank you for everything MFF has helped me with.