Norna OBrien Godfrey, ON, Canada
I am so thankful that Tuula reached out to me and that I had the good sense to respond and accept her invitation.
Reading this chapter made me think of many things I have learned over the past few years. My late husband and I owned two conventional businesses that we started when he could not work at his job any longer because of various health issues. Both of the businesses brought in good income but were very labour intensive, and I looked after my disabled father at the same time. After my father and my husband passed away, I realized that I had spent all of my energy working the business and looking after them and everyone else, like a robot and ended up with just emptiness inside when it was all gone and I only had me to think about. I had to take time to reflect on my life and the emptiness I felt and figure out how the best way for me to heal would be.
I had learned about the power of our subconscious minds around this time when I read The Secret, by Rhonda Byrne (or listened to it as I seem to comprehend better that way) and in 2011 I became involved with a company that was involved in personal growth and leadership development that talked about these powers also. They taught me about dream boards and about everything this chapter talks about, but no one ever taught me how to slow my brain down enough to do this. Somedays, it feels like I have a family of squirrels living in my head and find it difficult to just "breath and focus on one thing".
These things I have learned have always been in the back of my mind, and I often found myself asking "Why can others do this and I cannot"?
I do believe in this; I need to find the same level of belief in myself. I recall being told that from the shoulders down we are all worth at least minimum wage. It is the ones who can tap into their subconscious minds who are successful. I feel that in the back of my mind, I was thinking that the people who could dream and envision things they want in their lives were different from me somehow. For years, I have believed I had a learning disability of some sort, (even though I graduated all of my high school grades with honours), but Michael assured me in my first conversation with him about that last night that this wasn't true and he helped me to understand more clearly why my head is so noisy, why it feels like I have squirrels running around. I am looking forward to working with Michael and Tuula, learning how to breathe, slow my brain down, balance my job, home life and achieve my goals and dreams of myself and my new partner being able to retire from our jobs within two years.
It is never too late to learn and I do believe that knowledge is power.