CHAPTER 11 - THE MYSTERY OF SEX TRANSMUTATION (EMOTIONAL ENERGY)
IS IT JUST ME??? ... or were all of you BLOWN AWAY reading all of these lessons this week??? I have NEVER been so moved with AHA moments in every one that I read! I want to take a life-changing nugget or 2 or 3 from every lesson I read & post it here, but time doesn't allow because I want to tell you something....
ROMANS 12:2 - Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be TRANSFORMED by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and prove what God's will is, His good, pleasing and perfect will.
I have studied The Word of God for many, many years, and was taught how to pray, but I wasn't REALLY taught beyond the FIVE SENSES, not REALLY, until one year ago, when I was introduced to this amazing, wonder-working group!!! Thank you, Michael Dlouhy, for living BIG ... outside the darned ole' box ... for wanting MORE ... for knowing it was OUT THERE ... in all necessary areas of life ... for your generosity to spread far & wide to ALL NATIONS! Your blessings are waiting for you in Heaven!
Today I feel like I've taken 1 step forward & 10 steps back, but I realized also that I'm moving forward.... Does that make sense?
I'm sitting (one of my new ventures) with an infirmed woman who has many debilitating physical issues, making her miserable morning, noon & night. She takes it out on all of us who are by her bedside trying to help in every way. I won't go into details in order to keep this short & sweet, but The Good Lord helps me to stay calm, knowing it's about her and NOT me.
Same with the situation I just got away from at Premier Cleaners. For many reasons I can only imagine, Burt, the new owner, managed to successfully push me out of the equation, forcing me to put my 2-week notice in and to finally fulfill my obligation to stay throughout the entire 2 weeks, and to continue to be totally devoted to that job, knowing he's an idiot!
I believe that, although I am actually very happy & joyful in my day-to-day activities, always anxious to wake up in the morning & not have ANY negative feelings about my entire day (unless it would involve the dentist or doctor appointments of course), I am NOT happy at all in my marriage, with no way out (did I just "go there?!" :-0 ), causing me to have MANY negative thoughts throughout every single day. That's all I ever want to write down in a forum like this about that. Can you love someone & know that you'll give your life for them, but don't like them anymore? ... All that to say that these negative feelings MAY have caused the negative situations in the above 2 paragraphs.... Hmmm. Something's GOT TO CHANGE! I will create a self talk that will ALLOW My Heavenly Father to right the wrongs in whatever way He sees fit....