Ben Drake West Ryde, NSW, Australia
Fear has presented its self in many ways over the years from that of family and friends who have lived their lives in fear and its often held me back. From a fear of sexually transmitted diseases owing to hearing the boys at school say that my asthma issues as a teen saying that it was a sign of stds. For many years I was living in fear from those comments.
For many years during high school i was also image conscious with weight and health issues, having to learn to value health and improve that health, the fear ran my life too.
After losing so many that cared about deeply it turned into a fear of losing those closest. These days I know that i will be ok. That i am loved. it's been a true battle for many years, as was said on a call recently that acting up was a cry for love and attention. I'd have to agree that it was so true. For many years I was working to get others attention family mainly. Just to get an acknowledgement rather than constantly hearing the screaming about what had done.
At the same time one fear was expressing cared about a male friend who came into my life when I first did that to this friend it was petrifying and he stayed a friend who is in touch daily. There have been fears driving after an accident, fears using a tool now i am confident using many of those tools. We have to stop letting the fear of a reaction run our lives and make our own choices. We can stop letting that happen by building our confidence in ourselves by self talk and doing what scares us.
Thanks to my ever amazing friends from mentoring for free especially Ken Klemm and Linda and Michael Dlouhy for Your ongoing support love and encouragement weekly. Thank you so much to my amazing wife Jenny for her own support and encouragement over the years. Your friend for life.
west ryde nsw Australia